loving you

No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring
Stay with me while we grow old

And we will live each day in springtime
Cause lovin’ you has made my life so beautiful
And every day my life is filled with lovin’ you

cussing

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sigh.. i screw things up big time.
i wish i had people who were standing in the same shoes as me. whom he/she can relate to me.

how i wish i could fall back on somebody.
how i wish i could sense what stability means.
how i wish i can get rid of these wobbling feeling from my heart.
if only… time didnt play pranks on me. i could make things go the way i want it to be.

remember, life is never a bed of roses. enjoy the time while it lasts.

soul mate? partner? lies.

opportunities come only once.

opportunities come only once. it’s something i know i don’t want to miss again.

jokes. i’m a living joke.

我只能永遠讀著對白
讀著我給妳的傷害
我原諒不了我
就請妳當作我已不在

cya blog, i’ll visit you again once in a while.

i rant here cause i’m sooooo fucking pissed

fine i dont go then.. now are you happier? go for your shopping spree, you are happier with others than me anyway.

there’s no need to push me too far.
isn’t it fine already to know that the person is also a victim in crime?

yeah, this iphone has a fucking bad communication skills. you dont notice something is happening to his life? you only pick up the communication flaw that happen this period once? i’ll put things upfront here now. but i dont see a need to clarify things here.

he has already made compromises to make it there as soon as he can. but you trample on it like some fucking rich brat throwing away a iphone that malfunction in a operating glitch and stamping it with his foot repeatedly untill it snaps. now it snaps, the iphone is broken. YOU MUST BE FUCKING HAPPY?

he has legitimate reasons this round. aren’t you concern about his future or are you more concern about YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU AND HIM HIM HIM HIM HIM AND HER HER HER HER?

stand in my fucking muddy shoes, OK? i’m living on a living shit. where as you? a bright rose with lots of admiring flowers around the corners of the world.

then what if i flunk what i’m doing, you come saying, ‘you suck, you shouldn’t have gone for it.’, ’see lah, you choose to go for what exemption? should have accompany me what…’

if i passed it, will you go bearing grudges.

now what is this hypocrisy? i’m at dilemma on the next step. fucked up.

the question here is, people, what will you do if you were me?

YEAH, I LOST AGAINST TIME. THANK THANK THANK THANK YOU ALL.

i dont fucking care the outcome right now. i’m so lost at what i’m doing right now.

i’m gonna fail tomorrow’s test anyway. why do i still go for it? will i do fine?
will i get exempted?

forget about this rant, it is messed up as it is in my heart right now. i’m sick and tired of organising this. i’m feeling better after typing this.

rescue me.
life is a living hell.
a person’s joy can be a person’s misery.

你知道吗？

你今年21岁，我24岁。

我会等你到24岁。

我们一起过31… 41… 51… 60… 70….. 到100。

next! :D

- Class 2 ($400)
- Class 4 ($600)
- Tour taiwan on a motorbike! ($3k-7k)
- Skydiving ($7k)
- Home ($350k)

周杰倫 – 擱淺

歌名: 擱淺
演唱: 周杰倫
附註:
作曲: 周杰倫
編曲: 鍾興民
填詞: 宋健彰

＊久未放晴的天空
　依舊留著妳的笑容
　哭過　卻無法掩埋歉疚

　風箏在陰天擱淺
　想念還在等待救援
　我拉著線　複習妳給的溫柔

　曝曬在一旁的寂寞
　笑我給不起承諾
　怎麼會怎麼會　妳竟原諒了我＊

＃我只能永遠讀著對白
　讀著我給妳的傷害
　我原諒不了我
　就請妳當作我已不在

　我睜開雙眼　看著空白
　忘記妳對我的期待
　讀完了依賴　我很快就離開＃

REPEAT＊＃＃

李聖傑-你們要快樂 [歌詞]

你們要快樂
作詞：姚若龍　作曲：陳小霞　編曲：呂聖斐

妳哭著拿下銀手鍊還我的時候　最近妳躲我有了理由
別說我的愛讓你慚愧不配擁有　珍惜不就是溫柔

但妳說抱歉愛上了我的好朋友　原來心酸比心痛難受
茫然的走到了門口倔強還是念舊　我聽見我回頭說

你們要快樂　要天長地久
你們沒有錯　愛是自由
走出這扇門後　至少我還有遼闊

你們要快樂　要緊緊牽手
你們不幸福　我會難過
成全最愛的人　不是為了看著她寂寞

過去曾讓妳笑得很甜　不代表有權利要妳糾結
雖然遺憾愛情也有它的季節　風不能吹　就作最瀟灑的落葉

today i was..

I WANT TO RANT.

This littleboy told me nobody will be home till 10 plus. Told me the mom and dad wont be back till 10plus too. littleboy told me he has to discuss with the mom first – which he has discussed for years, and many years to come. littleboy doesn’t want to tell me where he is. i can drive, ride, fly, jump by plane from anywhere in the sky, airborne, swim, run, route march, peddal, crawl and even take a bus to look for him. all he says was he was in the west area and wont be back till 830pm. which i lied about me having another student in the same block at 8pm. he then lied about being busy. when i knew he was on the way back home from his background noise. (: I’m a soldier, i was harassed before, and i have been trained to harass.

This afternoon I went to collect the tuition fees which they’ve owed me for over two months. Guess there were weren’t people at home since nobody responded to my knockings from 4pm, but i was so bloody persistent and carried on my knocking frenzy till 630pm. I left some tracks at the door so i know somebody comes home after i went down to buy some drinks. It worked so well, i think the child told his mom to not go home yet, or they were spying on me from the opposite side of their flat. Cause nobody can stand those knockings, trust me. (the doors of his flat nearly broke apart) Usually the mom comes home at 615pm. I went back to their house at 650pm and realise my boobies were touched! As a guy, i knew someone touched the boobies! I have to catch the thief! I carried on my knocking frenzy, i used my force to try to open up the window slightly and could smell AHHUA bakuteh! They might be thinking that i’m some typical guy who thinks there aren’t people in the flat and gives up after a while. I carried on the knocking frenzy. They tried to conceal their noises but they can’t hide the bak kut teh smell that is coming out from their living room window! lol. I carried on knocking as i was sure there are people inside there eating AHHUA bakkutteh! i also spoke to their neighbours, their neighbours say these people are a veryveyryveryveryveyrvyeyveryveryveyrvyervyery odd family.

almost 8pm, sky was almost dark. the knockings went on. i guess the mom and child couldn’t take the knockings and darkness in their flat, decided to confront me. lol. they opened their door. The mom was pretty fierce at first approach. But since i didn’t cheat, i didn’t lie or do anything wrong. I’m neither afraid, i did what i have to.

Littleboy gave me a laptop so that he can obtain some information, i could have ran away with it. but i did not. I want my $150 only. I sat on the floor accessing my email to get the address of the agent. Subsequently I manage to talk my way into his flat, then i continued my email search and meanwhile talk to the mom and him to give them a understanding of the picture.

- was accused of charging too much as so, i was cheating a small child (only 3 years younger than me)
- was accused of being a liar when i fail to turn up for appointment
- was due to a bike accident and another time due to rain
- he didnt believe i was in the hospital! he claims i was lying!
- initially quoted $40/hr, but worked at $35/hr as agreed with agent (with email as evidence)
- i’m okay. as long as its not too much a paycut.
- after turning up for three lessons, child asks for $30/hr. i told him my rates was initially $35/hr as agreed with agent, i didnt hesitate and say $30/hr is okay.
- i’m fine with it since i’m happy teaching. chin chai lah (in hokkien)
- littleboy did not tell mom this story, mom thinks i’m still charging at $35/hr
- mom thinks i’m a cheat because of this. and i’ve come to extort money from her little boy
- littleboy did not stand up on his own, looked arrogant, stood behind his mom and tried to fiercely talk to me to reinforce his story of me cheating him
- littleboy still tried to twist the story while standing behind mom to cover his own lies and story
- littleboy shouldn’t have kept the full story from the mom
- littleboy insist that he has some things to clarify with the agents
- littleboy doesn’t want to explain what he wants to clarify with the agent
- littleboy says that i have no rights to know
- so i told the littleboy he has no rights to get the address
- littleboy threatens not to give me my portion of money if i dont provide the address
- littleboy insist i’m cheating him, thus his mom doesn’t believe me
- littleboy insist i’m with the agent, cause the phone calls came from the agent came in today morning and my calls in the afternoon
- littleboy rejects my primary phone 10 times this afternoon and pick up my calls from my army handphone and realises it was me
- show evidence to the mom, in email, sms, police report and traffic accident report
- show my handphone call logs to him also
- mom realise my story was true after all
- mom knows im not a cheat
- mom finally knew that i was a good teacher, and that i didn’t overcharge, moreover undercharge them
- mom protected the child wrongly
- child without a doubt called me a liar over the phone for failing to turn up for the appt
- mom realises the child is the fattest liar of all from the looks of it
- mom also realises that the child engages tutors and not pay them PANG SEH THEM! upon reaching his place
- mom was disappointed
- mom was apologetic
- littleboy was the guilty in the end
- littleboy apologised
- the accused is finally lifted off his crimes
- now the picture is clear, everything has all surfaced
- justice has the answer!

that child has orded. he was a driver in army. wears a white specs. around 165cm. skinny build.

all these, all for a $150.00 he owe me.
no thanks to you.

now, you can run, but you can’t hide. i will harass you. i’ll stop your gas pipe, your electricity current. you can lock the doors forever, i will stay outside your flat and hammer your door. my hand will bleed, but i persevere. i’m determined. the $150 is mine and i will get it back. now i have gotten it back. i told child i was sure to get my money today, didnt i?

perhaps you got bullied in the past. doesn’t mean you can get away with everything or you can bully others now. i can see your mom is trying to protect you. but you got to have some integrity inside you to protect yourself. learn to be pure & honest my sec school motto.

now, be a man, do the right thing.
my knuckles became harder.

what i nearly did,
- broke their window
- painted their doors
- paint O$P$
- come every fortnight to spray their windows, doors, and floors
- dismantle their bicycle
- turn off their gas pipe
- turn off their main electricity switch

they could have,
- just blasted the speakers with music
- called the police
- throw knife at me
- shouted at me from inside the house

they shouldn’t have acted as if there are nobody at home. it makes them seem like they’re the one on the run lol. And it was so coincidental, on the 4th lesson when i was suppose to collect my money, he cancelled my service with the agent. and didn’t want to pay me. (: as he assume that there are no charges for changing tutors. and when the agent looked for another tutor for him he rejected the tutor at his doorstep by claiming there was no such person.

all these for a $150.00 littleboy owe me.

Western Digital RMA Singapore

Flextronics is the authorised distributor/rma’er in local Singapore and Asia. They’re extremely far to reach at Chai Chee. Drove rounds and rounds. Paid for parking, paid petrol, not really worth it. Moreover i lost all my data.

The only consolation? They’re sending me a newer 750GB HDD, different model. Hopefully better chip that doesn’t burn.