byon’s blog – my daily rant!

Flowers flowers everywhere, cherish the flower next to you. because you know you need to.

You’ll realise my mind is not focused right now. I’m totally lost, i’m angered, i’m in love, i’m stressed out and i’m broken..

If there is a price to everything, how much do you think you are worth? How much does your relationship worth to you? How much will you pay to have this relationship? But how do you weight relationship? via money? the amount of assets you have? The weight of the ‘matter’? since love is immeasurable, this is not something you can justify.

I have till today, given everything i could in my means to the one i have loved. If this love was to be measured, it would be millions and billions of dollars in pounds inclusive of the time spent, which i can’t buy back.

Until now do i realise, how little i am only to this person i have dearly cherished throughout this neither long or short period together. Does she know who i really am? Or exactly what am i to her?

During this interim, whether it’s time, money or heart, nobody has ever taken so much away before.

I always encourage open communication, but i think i have failed in delivering my message

Am i not being understanding here..

Have i said something i shouldn’t have said?

Am i taken for granted? For the pettiness you shown?

I’ve overslept, i’ve made you wait.

To you, I’m not forgivable now.

I do feel also, i’m a human with a heart.

Let time tell me what’s next,

And what will arise from this period of thinking.

But i’ll be strong. Make me stronger O Lord.

Do you remember the first day we met? The beginning of a beautiful friendship.

At that time, my faith towards love was really low.

You shown me the goodness in people.

I am grateful for your influence in my life.

I will not forget that very night when your love poured over into my life. The feeling never left me, and it has grown ever since.

Life was colourful from there. It seemed brighter, songs that didn’t sound romantic suddenly did.

Now… I don’t know, but i don’t want to experience a sad ending.

Take this pain away, you.